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When will I finish this book?

Yesterday morning, I was looking at the sticker mark in my Quran and wondered, "Why is it taking such a long time for me to finish this? Such a slow-mo. Mr is already finishing his second round," And then I told myself, "I'm gonna make sure I khatam this before the little one comes out!," There you go - such a random semangat....

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On Diwali Fireworks

Aisya's Current Age: 2 Years 8 Months Baby's Current Age: 11 weeks in womb It's the Diwali celebration today and as usual in Malaysia, every celebration comes with annoying fireworks at night. While in bed.. "Apa tu, mummy? Terkejut Aisya," "Fireworks," "Apa tu, mummy?" (In the phase of asking so many questions) "Come let me show you," and so I showed her videos...

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Do you dress up at home?

For the past one week or so, I've been lying down on the sofa, while doing some work on my laptop but spending most of my time, watching series. Doc told me to rest and I rested, physically and mentally. I've completed all three season of Devious Maids..Heeee ;) I LOVE the series because the ladies are soo hot (eventhough they're maids) and...

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Roasted Lamb Head

There was this one time, when we were watching the Asian Food Channel (AFC), we came about a chef who cooked lamb head in Morroco. Mr. had the craziest idea to give it a try and so during the recent Eid Mubarak, we managed to get two pieces of lamb heads and my dad cooked them and it turned out tender and sweet...

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I thought I lost my baby...again.

Last Friday, a dear uncle of mine passed away, after fighting various diseases for 4 years. It was a blessing to see the number of people at the solat jenazah in the mosque. I, on the other hand, just like all other family members were busy with preparations for the funeral: flowers, drinks for guests, greeting and thanking guests, tahlil and all. That...

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Are you really a fighter? Or just a quitter?

I personally think there's a difference between a businessman/women and an entrepreneur. I think a businessman sells products and there's a lot of them around. However, an entrepreneur creates business that serves a bigger objective. I see entrepreneurs as people with skills and brains, who knows how to empower people. I see entrepreneurs knowing the shortcuts to success. I see entrepreneurs as those...

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Allah is great.

I prayed dhuha and I cried. I cried really hard. I felt ashamed, very very ashamed towards Him. And at that particular point, I felt small. For the past week, I've been missing my Subuh prayers, failing to wake up. Lalai. Forgotten about my duties towards my Lord. Every morning and every night before sleep, I tell myself "Subuh!" but deep inside, I...

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I dislike shopping malls.

I remember having this conversation with a girlfriend of mine who makes it a point to go to the shopping mall every weekend, as a family outing activity. That is the time that they will look for things to buy - the needs and the wants -  or just to window shop or just to look at people . To her, its family-bonding...

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O Allah - Lead Us the Way

Today, its an off day. Just like yesterday, my mood's been a little unstable. Told Mr. that I don't know what's wrong, but I just don't feel like doing anything, I feel lazy and I feel down. Good that he understood it and just said that "You need a break, just do anything, as long as you're happy," And then I realized that...

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The day my daugher got admitted into the hospital

It was around 11pm at night that my 2 years old daughter Aisya suddenly vomited. As I was cleaning her up, I noticed that her tummy was abnormally bloated and hard. I asked Mr, "Is it usually like this? Or am I just being over-worried?" I then asked my mom's house helper. According to them, it should be ok by the next day....

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There's always reasons for every life event.

Pre-pregnant, my weight was 55kg. Post-delivery, after about 3 months, my weight returned back to 55kg. But since I was breastfeeding Aisya, my weight decreased little by little until I reached about 50kg after 1.5 years breastfeeding her. Many say that breastfeeding the a good way to lose weight. As for me, yes I did lose weight, but maybe a little too much....

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Good Cop, Bad Cop

Last night was our very first time playing Good Cop, Bad Cop with Aisya. Guess who is the Good Cop? ME! ME! :D Aisya has been quite demanding these days. Having a mind of her own, she wants what she wants. Sometimes after explaining to her why its a NO, she would reply 'Ok!' but sometimes, she just answers back sarcastically, saying back...

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What is your rate of improving yourself?

I believe that we must constantly upgrade our lives. We must always strive to be a better person than who you are before. Those who are at lose, are those who think too good about themselves, and not wanting to learn. Those who are at lost, are those who are living comfortably within their comfort zones. What is your rate of improving yourself?...

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The Power of the Subconscious Mind

Many times we tell ourselves that "Yes, I Can," as a way to motivate ourselves to be better. But little did I know that this is only a small part of us conquering our own minds. I used to tell my dad, "I don't think I'm that good at Additional Maths subject, I don't seem to be scoring it like others do," and...

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It has been 3 weeks!

Good morning! Today marks the 3rd week of me working on my own. I now have a new laptop as my macbook decided to go KAPUUUKKKK on me, right after quitting the company [which also explains why I haven't been updating]. As I am writing this, my daughter is lying down on my lap, watching Dr. Mc Stuffins on Disney Channel. She has...

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My Final Email to my Colleagues

Assalammualaikum, good evening all. It seems like it was just yesterday that I joined this company and today, is already my last day.  When I first joined [my department] as part of the Engineering Associate programme, [my department] was such a small team. We were working a lot with the Domestic Team and I remember having to run up and down the stairs between Level 8 &...

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Help! My back hurts!

I've been having back ache at the top part of my body for a week now. It started last Friday. I woke up to a wrong sleeping position. And it hurts really bad! Not just neck, but also shoulder and back! I put 'koyok' patch for two nights and it didn't get any better. Instead I had a hard time sleeping comfortably because...

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#countingdays

One more week till my last day here in this company! #countingdays I've been getting a lot of remarks on how happy I look as the date is nearer. My face lights up during conversations. I smile and laugh often. "Does it feel like a huge stone is removed from your head? Does it feel lighter?" To be honest, I do not notice...

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The Word MALAS.

I grew up with my parents making the word MALAS (lazy) a taboo. Never ever say the word MALAS even if you are lazy. Sigh a little, but don't say the word. I never understood why its such a bad word, we're not even cursing! Just like any other teenager, I rebelled a little. I started using MALAS when I was in Sydney,...

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Has it really been 5 years?

Just a few minutes ago, a group of newbies stood in front of my cubicle. The HR Representative introduced them to the team, this is so and so... and that is so and so. We have heard of this. 12 fresh graduates being hired into Engineering Graduate Program. In the midst of people being laid off, it seems that we need more people...

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The Scapegoat: Being the Victim of Situation

The drop in oil prices have brought impact to the economy; specifically the oil & gas industry. The company I'm working with now  (leaving in 2 weeks time weeehoooo) decided to scale down the number of employees to cope with this. A few months back, we have heard of a number of staffs given the option of Voluntary Seperation Scheme (VSS) and took...

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Trying to teach the little one discipline.

Aisya turned two last two weeks. At this age, she develops really really fast. Picking her up from my mom's after work, she seems to be learning something new EVERYDAY. I asked her the other day, "Where are we going, Aisya?" "Mosh!" (referring to mosque). "Nak yayang...A'an.." (Translation: Nak sembahyang, quran...")..Oooo, melts my heart! Last week, we passed by a truck and she...

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A new mother in law?

The weirdest thing happened last week. My father-in-law called us, to ask if it's okay that he remarries. [insert long awkward silent moment] Ever since my mother-in-law passed away in October last year, many people have been asking him if he's going to remarry. He's 58 years old now, and so people think that he's got a long way to go, if Allah...

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Aisya & the Quran

A few months back, Mr. wanted to introduce a new habit to our family. He wanted us to learn to love the Quran and learn to connect to this book of Allah. So he makes it a habit that we listen to a few minutes of Quran recitals before we get to listen to anything else on the radio - which is usually...

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Goodbye Corporate World! Hello Entrepreneur World!

You know that saying 'Wheel of Life - Sometimes you're up, sometimes you're down,'. It seems that I've been down for quite some time now. The past few months have been quite bad. From incident A to incident B and then comes another. It feels like I'm at the most bottom part of the wheel. But then again, who am I to complain...

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When a dream gets crushed.

When it comes to Zaahara, I visualize a lot. My imagination usually can only stretch to 2 years most. No 5 years plan whatsoever. So far, alhamdulillah, Zaahara have achieved some of things that I've imagined. I remember that everytime I get nearer to a goal, there will always be some hiccup and I will still push and try hard to make my...

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2015!

Assalammualaikum! I don't really have a specific topic, so I'm just going to ramble and see what comes out. You know how every time the new year starts, people will have a wish list or a goal list on how 2015 should be. I have never ever done that before. I'm not sure if I'm just not that semangat new year or if...

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